February 2006 Submissions
The candles flicked in the darkness. One body laid on the sofa. She had Alicia
Keys playing in the background. She wanted him there. He made everything
right. Amy missed the traveling and the socializing she did with everyone. But
she had a newer purpose in her life. The monitor released the cries of little
Tamela. Amy was caught off guard because normally she slept through the night.
Joy had told her she should inform him that he has a child. Amy was still at
odds with divulging that information. He had not tried to contact her at all.
Tamela calmed down her cries as she noticed her mom enter the room. Amy had a
little piece of him with her in Tamela. Amy quickly came to the realization
that he was happy. He was still with his wife. Amy just got caught up in a
lust affair that was already traveling down a dead end road. She did not think
she was his type. His wife was prettier than her. Amy, by no means was as wild
as Candice. He had taken time to get to know her.
Before she knew it, he was pursuing her. But he was not like every other
married man looking for action on the road. Amy walked with Tamela to the
living room. Tamela was getting over the flu. Amy handed her a sippy cup of
Pedialyte. Amy remembered when he first kissed her. She felt something she had
never felt with anyone. So up until her release, she had never felt with
anyone. No one ever knew it was sexual. She did not flip out when he was with
his wife. He was the first to say that he loved her. she loved him more than
he could ever understand. He finally broke down and admitted that he was
working things out with his wife.
Amy was so discouraged as far as her feelings and herself went. It had almost
been a year and a half. She picked up her cell and flipped through her phone
book. She was not surprised that his number was still there. Actually she got
tired of deleting it only for Joy to re-enter it. Amy hit send and waited. She
breathed a sign of relief when he got his voicemail. She looked at Tamela and
left a message.
Hi, I just wanted to call since it had been so long. I hope things are
working out for you...
Umm... I really wanted to tell you something else but it's not something you
do over the phone.
You know... I never knew what I was missing but I knew once we started
kissin'
I found not only Love but you as well. I hope you have a loving Valentine's
Amy hit end and popped her neck. She had made an effort. Tamela had fallen
back to sleep and Amy was about to go to bed when her doorbell rang. It was 11
pm and she was not expecting anyone. Maybe someone had the wrong place. Amy
was shocked when she saw Kurt standing on the outside. She was not sure what
to do next. She adjusted Tamela and invited him inside.
"I was in town and thought I would stop by. Actually Joy stated you
needed a Valentine." He said as Amy laughed nervously.
"That would be Joy... Are those for me?" Amy asked as she noticed
the flowers.
"Oh... yeah! Joy did not tell me you were baby-sitting." Kurt said
as he looked at the little girl.
"Well I am not... she is mine. Tamela Cristina." Amy said as she
noticed the wheels turning behind his blue eyes. "I found out 2 months
after I was released. I was not sure how to tell you."
"I take it this was what you wanted to tell me. Wow! Well, I need to
share something with you. Karen and I are no longer together. She can't handle
the traveling schedule. I have thought about you everyday. I was too afraid to
try and call you. But then Joy came to the last PPV and we have a stern
conversation. So I began to realize that what I was missing was you."
Kurt said as Amy smiled.
"So where does this leave us?" Amy questioned as Kurt moved next to
her.
"Let's work on this Valentine's day..." Kurt said as he leaned in to
kiss her.
I used to think that I wasn't fine enough
And I used to think that I wasn't wild enough
But I won't waste my time tryin' to figure, out
why you playing games, whats this all about
And I can't believe,
Your hurting me
I mad your girl, what a difference
What you see in her
You aint see in me
But i guess it was all just make-believe
Oh, Love
never knew what I was missing
but I knew once we started kissin'
I found......
Love
never knew what I was missin'
but I knew once we start kissin'
I found.....
I can go, what am I gonna do
I'm so oo empty
my heart, my soul can't go on
Go on baby without you....
My rainy days fade away when you,
come around please tell me baby
why you go so far away
Why you go...
Love......
never knew what I was missing
but I knew once we started kissin'
I found......
Love
never knew what I was missin'
but I knew once we start kissin'
I found.....
I found you
yeaaahhhh
oooooo
Now I go, what am I gonna do
I'm so oo empty
my heart, my soul can't go on
Go on baby without you....
Rainy days fade away
when you come around
say your here to stay
With me boy
I don't want you to leave me
I need you.........
Love......
never knew what I was missing
but I knew once we started kissin'
I found......
Love
never knew what I was missin'
but I knew once we start kissin'
I found.....
Genta Hughes
Every Step
You take for first breath
fresh from my womb.
I hold you upon my breast,
Realizing that you are mine
and I am yours.
As you suckle milk
for the first time.
I Promise you I will
be there for all those first.
Every little step
no matter how small,
or how wide it may be.
I will hold you hand
when you start to walk.
I promise also to let go
so that you can take those
baby steps on your own.
And those will be baby steps
for me also.
For every mile stone
you reach, I will
be there, always
cheering you on.
Weeping with pride.
Brandy
Dear God,
How I really want to thank you for everything. You have given me
love and granted bountiful blessings for me. I really want to thank
you for this not only you have given me gladness in good times, but
also helped me up when trials and turmoil come my way.
God, you are really gracious and indeed loving. You always protect
me here, there and everywhere; How I really want to sing praise to
the greatest thing you've ever done for everyone of us. You sent
your only son Jesus Christ to die on the cross for our sins...It is
really a sacrificial love and a gift that I, a sinner don't even
deserve. But, You took me and you loved me; I want to praise your
name eternally.
Thank you God for everything and anything that has been a part of my
life. If ever I would be angry at times, please help me control
these emotions. I really need you by my side. Come into my heart and
let the precious blood of your son Jesus cover me...no more traumas,
no more pessimistic decisions, no more bonfires and no more
depression that crowds over my heart so much. Help me obey my
parents, respect elders and befriend everyone that has done me
wrong.
I pray, dear God, help those who are still in need of you; Help
those who are plenty. Reach your mighty hand to those who are sick,
who are dying and who had been rejected. You are the one who
controls this earth, even though the society is evil. Let us abstain
from the evil works of Satan, who tries to devour us with his
undesirable words. Forgive us from our sins, O Lord, let us now
forgive others too.
If ever I had a wish in my heart, I gave it all to you. Let you, O
God, be the one to manipulate everything with your overflowing love!
How much I really love you, thank you for giving me another new
point of view in life.
Thank you greatly for giving me numerous talents, and thanks for my
parents, also to everyone who gave me support!
Lastly, I would really like to talk to you everyday not only in
prayer, but also through reading your word.
I love you, Lord!
Your child,
Melanie.
Just When I Needed you Most
Author: Melanie Ong
Characters: Kurt Angle, mentions of
a diva and wrestler.
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Slight Angst, Character death, Tragedy
Disclaimer: I don't own anyone mentioned here. The particular Diva is owned by
OVW.
Distribution: Please ask first before posting it elsewhere.
Notes: The song is "Just When I Needed You Most" by Randy Vanwarmer,
and this fic is the response to Writing Challenges "Freewrite" on
January 29.
Summary: Left behind by his girlfriend, Kurt is trying to move on in the midst
of scars and tears.
You packed in the morning, I stared out the window
And I struggled for something to say
You left in the rain without closing the door
I didn't stand in your way.
You left me.
But I miss you more than I missed you before
And now where I'll find comfort, God knows
After all the times we've been through, I always hope that you're near beside
me, telling me the deepest secrets within your heart. Whenever we are
together, the feeling seems like heaven. During the time I feel your loving
touch, my heart beats so loud that I can't help but hold you close. Ever
since, I never wanted you to leave me.
'Cause you left me just when I needed you most
Left me just when I needed you most.
When I proposed to you that very night, I remember you accepted my love, you
even told me that I will be the only man that you would always care for. How
happiness gave way when I feel your embrace once again.
Now most every morning, I stare out the window
And I think about where you might be
I've written you letters that I'd like to send
If you would just send one to me.
But, I never knew that there was someone who have been raving for you. You
started to make excuses and said that you have important things to do. At
first I thought it was true, yet it was really a lie. Once the story broke,
you left me and ran into his arms. I called you, but you won't respond.
'Cause I need you more than I needed before
And now where I'll find comfort, God knows
I thought that you'll come back once again, but life's cruelty took you away
from me. Maybe I was wrong before. I should have grasp you close in my hands
and protect you from trials and temptations beyond love's journey.
'Cause you left me just when I needed you most
Left me just when I needed you most.
Whenever I pass by Santa Barbara, I'll always think of you. Whenever there are
pink roses in the Secret Garden, I'll never stop marvelling about your tender
beauty and our sweet love.
You packed in the morning, I stared out the window
And I struggled for something to say
You left in the rain without closing the door
I didn't stand in your way.
Now that you're in another world, I wish that you will enjoy your stay with
him. Whenever he needs you most, don't ever leave him like what you did to me.
You might think that we're over, baby, but for me love's not over for us two.
Each memory of you will be like lamps guiding my way to your heart, giving me
the warmth of love's deepest thoughts. We might not have frequent romances,
but you have captivated me ever since you came into my life.
Now I love you more than I loved you before
And now where I'll find comfort, God knows
Goodbye, Elisabeth and Gregory.
'Cause you left me just when I needed you most
Oh yeah, you left me just when I needed you most
You left me just when I needed you most.